Monday, August 30, 2010

Day 10 Your Ex-boyfriend


I think that no matter what has happened between us you still know me better then anyone else. You really do know all my dirty little secrets, mostly because you've been a part of a good chunk of them, and I trust you more then most people. I will always care about you, even when I try to come off as apathetic, know that its a lie. I know our lives would be very different and probably still intertwined if I had made different choices and if our decisions hadn't drifted us apart like they did, even if the drift was only enough to cause us to not date.....I still think of you as one of my closest friends, and I'm glad we can still not only be civil with each other but continue to have a mutual friendship and understanding. I feel so scatterbrained writing this letter but you know I've always been this way. Certain things still remind me of you, and cause me to miss you and all our fun times together. We really were two peas in a pod, and I'm happy that we're both still peas even if the pod is bigger then it used to be....ha. It never takes me long to come back to you, even in friendship or whatever you want to label it as. You're the one person who I've always felt the most comfortable around and that still hasn't changed, I love never having to explain myself to you because you just get it and you always have. I love talking to you now because you remind me that I'm still the same Ames and you still know me. I know I say it too much but I really am sorry for some of the fucked up things we went through because of me, even though we never really fought, I know my choices have hurt you and it means a lot to me that you've forgiven me and still care about me. You're incredible, always have been always will be, and I always love it when we do cross paths. I can't predict the future but I can tell you that I will always think of you fondly and I hope you're never truly out of my life for good. You have one of the best hearts I know and I will always be proud to have dated you and to know you better then most everyone else. I hope you continue to be the happy guy I know you are, you really do deserve the best.

Love, Peanut
P.s. try touching your pinky to your thumb and then stopping. just try. :)

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